} we will rejoice and be glad in it

so tomorrow is THE day.

haha when i wrote that i thought of the song This Is The Day. (as in, 'this is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made. We will rejoice, we will rejoice and be glad in it, and be glad in it.') haha well thats a good omen at least :)

i mean, i guess i worry about it whenever i think about it, i would be lying if i say i dont. but i find myself not thinking about it much. haha. like today after dinner my mum said to me, 'you should pray hard tonight' and i was like 'huh?' and started thinking through in my head if theres some natural disaster or war going on that i should be concerned about. and then she continued, 'so you will get good results.' and i went, 'OH.'

but if people talk to me about it, and i start thinking about it, of course i get worried and scared, and i start feeling like a bad result would be the end of the world, just like almost everyone else i guess.

but i mean, im not sure how or when i suddenly felt this way, but what i've come to understand is that worst comes to worst, i like to think that there's something else in store for me. i mean, even if i cant go to uni and all. and come on - something in store that doesnt involve more books and studying?? that has to be pretty damn good. i mean im sure uni will be fun too, but taking a different path, that is just pure scary and EXCITING. :) :)

another thought i've had is that if i get C's and D's and U's i will add dots and turn them into smiley faces. haha. not sure what i'll do with S's and E's, but A's and B's are good by themselves. :)

truthfully, im more worried that i've really lost my job at max brenner's. :( haha. sorry for going on about it in 3 entries straight, but its so damn frustrating! i keep wishing i'd tried harder. im starting to get over it though, i think.

well, hope everyone gets the result that they want/need tomorrow. :) i will settle for a friendly call from guess-where. bahh.

2008-03-06, 9:45 p.m..
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