} VEXATION

I CANT STOP EATING PINEAPPLE TARTS. haha. =D i found a box of them just now and i finished almost all of it already. =| im such a peeg.

it was so weird to be really back at school today, as in have normal lessons and stuff. i nearly forgot how HUNGRY and SLEEPY i get thanks to lectures and tutorials. i was dying during econs and maths although i didnt sleep very late last night...

and during malay cikgu didnt come AGAIN. this is the third time already. well actually he came, gave us some work, then left. without any reason! sorry but HOW USELESS IS THAT, he might as well not have come at all. this is not the first time he hasnt come for class... and its terrible to do it NOW since a levels are coming fast. this is becoming quite frustrating, especially since we would most probably end up not doing anything about it. why? because...

1. given that A levels are coming soon, it would be unwise to 'create trouble' now...
2. he is a senior teacher so i guess his status is somewhat reputable, or at least the school wouldnt want to seem ungrateful by taking disciplinary action. if we spoke up, at best we would be ignored and at worst, we would be messing with him and the People Up There (ref to prev entry).
3. we will still have to face him next year, unless he gets sacked or smth, which is unlikely.

i dunno what to do, the rest of the class (7 of us altogether) are also very very unhappy with the teacher, and we often voice it out among ourselves but it seems like it will take a long time before we dare to voice it out in front of him. or to the school, behind his back. theres that dilemma of not wanting to create trouble, and wanting to do something about it. i mean, its NOT RIGHT to keep it this way.

i hate how he knows that we would be too afraid to do anything (i assume he knows). cos we have never complained in front of him, or questioned his whereabouts when he doesnt come to class. it feels like he's taking advantage of it. but being a senior ip teacher, there could be many strings he can pull against us if we try to fight back unless we have the solid support of other students and/or teachers.

i HATE being so helpless. i wish i could think of something we could do that would work. and even then i cant do it alone.

well. i dunno. i have to think about it more maybe.

anyway, on a lighter note, i borrowed another sherlock holmes book from the school lib today. =D this one is a collection of short cases... i finished reading one during the malay period and its SO NICE. conan doyle is such a genius. i also read one of the stories in the stack of print-outs that i mentioned yesterday, this morning before school hahaha. i love sherlock holmes. i wish i could be as smart as him then i would know how to deal with the asshole malay teacher. bah.

when i was borrowing the book the librarian asked me, 'why you borrow the book so old one?' i pointed out that most of the books are old and i thought i heard her sigh a bit. but thats probably another thing i should touch on another day cos i've really written too much here today haha. =)

2006-10-16, 6:30 p.m..
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