im feeling emo again. :( i dont think its because of mood swings... i think i've always had this nagging sadness of gloria & su leaving, but it was masked for a while by the desperate need to do work.

actually i still have a lot of work to do now, but im finding it hard to start.

sorry i just have to whine a little:

how come everyone else can keep up with their work,
how come everyone else can catch on so quickly,
how come everyone else can make friends and go into new things so much more easily and quickly.

maybe because everyone else doesnt spend so much time moping like this.

i need to pull myself together.

i hope this is just a low. or PMS.

the resolution to spend an hour a day drawing/playing guit isnt really working... although i havent stopped trying.

i went for bball IFG training with michelle v today, since she asked if i wanted to try it out. so i did. and WTH, i was the only person with no competitive bball experience whatsoever and felt kinda stupid. haha. it was quite fun but i sucked. i duno if i should still join the IFG team. i dont want to embarrass myself or the team :S /end preteen drama

one of the outcomes of the training today, though, is a swollen left pinky. how am i going to play the guitar for the performance next week??? ahhhhhhh.

sometimes i wonder if things will be the same after glory and su are gone. if we can continue hanging out, as though they are just on a temporary long holiday? i wonder, because as much as i understand that nothing lasts forever, i really want us to be lifelong friends ... and not just another phase that i can only look back on - like ARC, like nj guit, like max brenner's......

i have to pull myself together..!

2008-08-27, 9:07 p.m..
before } after