} i dont like presentations...

Last night my head was so overwhelmed with thoughts that it became hard to think, because i went to watch Rhinoceros (feeling quite lucky that i got to watch it in the end), a play that's based on a lot of philosophical concepts, and i finished reading The Right Attitude To Rain by Alexander McCall Smith, which isn't really about philosophy but the main character is a philosopher. but i liked the play, and the book's ending just made me giddy with happy feelings, kinda like the effects of watching a jamie oliver show, haha.

i guess its strange that i woke up this morning feeling so empty and exhausted. but maybe its not really strange... i guess a happy and thoughtful night has to be balanced with an empty and exhausted morning.

i have to prepare a 3-min presentation for an interview with Design Singapore next wednesday... i think im just doing simple powerpoint slides and talk over it, hopefully i wont be too boring. i dont really want to invest too much sweat and emotion into it, because i dont have much time anyway, and i guess because im not really sure anymore if i still want the scholarship. im not even sure if i still want to go to boston, im not sure if i still want to study art at this point, because im also really curious about law... and after considering the costs, i realised that even with the scholarship there is still quite a lot of costs to cover.

so im not even sure if i should be going to the interview, because going for it would mean missing about half of the law camp. not that im very enthu about going to the camp, but i wonder if going for the interview is just a little secret excuse for me to miss half the camp, precisely because im not really looking forward to it...?

but i already informed the person that i'll be coming for the interview, and i dont want to just not show up. neither do i want to tell them im not interested in the scholarship anymore, because i guess i do want to show up if only to meet the people at DSG, although i duno how im going to explain picking law over art. i guess i'll have to tell them the truth. and anyway im needed at the cafe on wednesday night. and after that it would be quite pointless to go back to camp on thurs (the last day), i'll be too lazy anyway hahah.

and then comes the question, why go for the camp at all if i dont even want to go? but i've already signed up, and confirmed my attendance twice, dammit, and i hate to give a no-show. and i should really give it a try anyway.

so i guess im going for law camp. and leaving early. and going for the interview. and this is what my head has been going through everyday since i started thinking seriously about university, and i cant wait until next week when both the camp and interview are over so i can finally blissfully think about nothing. jeez.

anyway i still have my powerpoint slides to do. and btw matthewgraygubler.com has had a little makeover, and there are new drawings up. and if im not wrong its now arranged such that the newest stuff is on top, so you dont have to wait for everything else to load before checking if theres anything new! yay! check it out because the drawings and scribblings are interesting, and because Matthew Gray Gubler is adorable, especially on Criminal Minds.

also, looking forward to buying some new clothes before school starts. really into the product RED stuff at the moment, so i want to look at GAP which is all good cos i need a new pair of jeans.

that was random.
im procrastinating. :(

2008-06-13, 3:17 p.m..
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