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i had 2 interviews this past week, and i kind of had an awkward moment in both. the first, on wednesday, was for nus architecture, and i almost never found out about it because they asked applicants to check their website to see if they've been shortlisted for interviews, rather than taking the trouble to send emails/letters like everyone else. i guess it might help them to sieve out applicants a bit, but i find it a bit lazy tbh. but anyway.

i was a bit nervous for that, cos i guess with architecture i dont really know what to say, i just...chose it as my 2nd choice. and thats about it. there was little i could say about why im interested in it. luckily it was only a 5-min interview and most of it was on art and design in general, and my interests... they asked about my favourite places in singapore and i was like HAHAOHSHIT cos i couldnt think of anything. i forgot about the national museum which is a pretty gorgeous structure, i could only think of the esplanade cos i go there so much now. -_-

anyway, the awkward moment came when they started asking me if architecture is my first choice. i told them its my 2nd, and that i picked law as my first, and they did the eyebrow thing that everyone does to me (either because they knew i applied for law, and then i tell them i also applied for art&design, or vice versa)... and one of them, a (young) (good-looking) caucasian prof, said: "so if you get that (law) you're gona have to put this whole other interest on the back burner."

and that was the awkward moment. because i could only smile and say "well......yea." and i didnt know what to think or say, because he had probably just summarised the biggest dilemma i've had for a long time.

and then after a few seconds of awkwardness apparently 5 mins was over because they just went 'well ok thankyou' and i kind of kicked myself for not thinking of some smart reply. just smiled weakly and fumbled off.

they liked my watercolour though.
and marvelled at either the extent of my passion as a child, or my weirdness, cos i decided to bring a copy of house plans i did for fun when i was younger, back when i was a bit obsessed with interior design, cos thats prob the only architecture-related drawing i've ever drawn in my life. and now you think im crazy, but oh well. join the club.

then on friday i had an interview for the nanyang scholarship at ntu, which is really quite WOW for me hahah. it was just a why-not? thing to apply, and i told them exactly that when they asked me why i applied for their scholarship. well either my sincerity (hahah) had an effect on them, or they just have too much money to give out, cos i got it. lol. im happy about it though, just a bit amused as well cos as far as interviews go i dont think that one went really well, but apparently... .......

anyway. they also asked if i applied at any other schools, so i honestly told them that i applied to nus law and smu law as well. and, ok, i got the eyebrow thing again, getting used to that by now.. and they also said: "but if you do law, you'll have to keep this (design) as just a hobby"... and once again, since i havent yet come up with a smart reply to that, i just smiled and went "well......yea."

ha ha.
mannnn.

so i left those 2 interviews feeling really quite troubled. and up until now i havent really sorted out the dilemma yet. i may never really be able to decide. then what? i duno.

but after the 2nd interview i went in to work (i say that as an expression, not in the literal sense, cos i facebooked most of the time) and i was reading an article, and i saw this quote by a guy who had studied violin professionally and then decided to give it up (when asked if he regretted his choice):

"No. If you love something but choose not to do it professionally, it's not a waste. Because, you know, you still have it. You have it forever."

and yeah. thats true. that doesnt really help me to decide actually, but i do wish i'd seen the quote before my interviews, cos then i would have had my smart reply. damn! haha.

but even though he said that, i do secretly wish that this stranger would one day pick up his violin again. do you ever meet, or see, or hear of, random people around and wish you're somehow in touch with them so you'd know what they're going through, whats gona happen to them, what their story is like? i do. i guess that makes me a busybody, haha..

today was entirely devoted to general slackery, but tomorrow im hoping to do something productive. like finish reading A Suitable Boy, cos the fine is building up and i cant renew a second time. damn you money-sucking NLB! :(

oh and i got a letter from su. :)

oh and today is amy's birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

haha. and that sums up my boring week/life.

EDIT: AND OH YEAH THE MAX BRENNER'S CEO CANCELED HIS TRIP WTF!! WORRIED FOR NOTHING! im really relieved though hahahahah

2008-05-18, 11:15 p.m..
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