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yess! common tests are finally over. just chem skill A left tomorrow. =D physics was really really hard... i guess it was partly because i didnt study enough, though. =/ i WANTED to persevere and keep studying hard, but after 2 days of total studying, i guess i just got tired. so i gave in and watched hana kimi. haha =D

anyway, i guess even though i wasnt well prepared for common tests, i feel kind of blessed. cos it didnt turn out that bad at all, and i think/hope i will get passable grades for everything. =) i think the exam that made me panic the most was econs, cos the previous day i spent most of the time studying chem. (it also doesnt help that i barely understand anything about macro.) right before the exam started i was even more un-calm cos we went into the exam hall late. (funny story. ha. the paper was supposed to start at 2 so we went to the hall at about 1.55. there was no one outside the hall though, and we thought that we were like super enthu or something. turned out that everyone else was more enthu cos they were all inside already and the paper was about to start...)

but right before they gave out the paper, i saw some writing on the table. (no, unfortunately, it wasnt any useful econs definitions/terms.) it said:

Econs Prelims 2006
die la!!!

haha. and despite my panic state, i couldnt help but smile when i saw that. last year, another person was sitting at the same table, feeling the same things that i was feeling. i dunno, but somehow that calmed me down, as though the exam is no reason to be nervous anymore.

after all, its really just common tests.

the scary thing is, as suhui was saying the other day, a levels wont be just an exam. it will be kind of a big deciding factor in everything... at least until we get our uni degree.

but oh well. i will think about it when the time comes...

btw i have decided not to retake my malay paper. i wanted to give it another shot, originally, if i can be exempted from going to classes. as it turns out, i guess thats not possible. cikgu kept trying to persuade me to try again though, which kind of irritated me, because it didnt seem to be about giving me another chance anymore. it sounded more like (ok maybe im being very cynical here) the malay dept is trying to save its own butt cos out of the entire cohort only 1 person got an A, which probably means less than 10% distinction. well maybe they should have thought about that more last year when they taught - oops sorry, was there much teaching done at all? i may be making a mountain out of a molehill here, but since im the mole i guess its a pretty big deal to me.

cikgu mazalan claimed to have been away on numerous courses a lot of times, and even during the lessons when he WAS present, at least 50% of them were spent making us watch films, youtube videos (ohmygawd as if i dont do enough of this outside class) and if not watching stuff, then just spontaneous discussions which obviously had no preparation on the teacher's part at all. we were given strange assignments like song writing and recording live malay conversations, and even if they were meant to be useful, they were later on not reviewed at all.

it may have been one teacher's responsibility, but how could the other teachers just turn a blind eye to this? wasnt it quite clear that their colleague was - to put it simply - slacking? we had a few lessons with cikgu artina later on during the november holidays, but it was really really just a very last minute effort to maybe help us pass our exams (if it can even be counted as an effort).

ok. glad i got that out. aha. =)

anyway this whole post has been so exam-related and just writing me tired me out. haha. will go slack some more before studying for skill A. =D

2007-03-07, 1:46 p.m..
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