} WHY

sometimes i think im such a lousy friend.

why cant i just feel happy for you?

i wish i could do something to help.

and im such an irresponsible ass.

why am i always so scared to speak up? even to people close to me. i dont want to live in constant fear of being judged. but its so hard not to.

i tell myself that i dont care. but i do. argh.

WHAT THE HELL is the problem with me. GOD. HELP.

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I HAVE BEEN STUCK IN THIS GODFORSAKEN PLACE FOR TWO YEARS WITHOUT A SINGLE TIME AWAY AND I REALLY REALLY NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE.

im dying. i dont care about what to do during holidays or whatever. i just want to get out of this place. and rest. i would book a hotel room in KL just to sleep in it for a whole day if i could.

im so pathetic. i cant even escape.

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i guess You want me to stick it out. i can only believe that its for the best.

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no more family holiday. but im still staying home tomorrow. i guess i can do more homework then.

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Measure of a Man - Clay Aiken

If one day you discover him
broken down, he's lost everything
no cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not
the woman at his side is all that he has got

Why do you ask him
move heaven and earth
to prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
when it's down to the wire?
Would he give his life up
to be all he can?
Is that, is that, is that
how you measure a man?

If by chance all he had to give you
was three words wrapped around your finger
would that be deep enough
at the end of everyday?
and how will you ever know if a man is what he says?

Why do you ask him
move heaven and earth
to prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
when it's down to the wire?
Would he give his life up to be
all he can?
Is that, is that, is that
how you measure a man?

He'd never give up
let go of his dreams
his world goes around
for his one true belief
is that how you know?
is that what it means?

Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
would he stand before you
when it's down to the wire
would he give his life up
to be all he can?

Is that, is that, is that
how you measure a man?

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