} Could it be - happiness?

I wanted to record that I'm feeling strangely at peace with everything today. I still remember where I'm lacking and where things aren't perfect, but I feel strangely calm about it all.

I also feel strangely cosy, and not in a rush, even though I know that I have chores to do tomorrow. The house is still cluttered but at least the floor is clean (ish) because I mopped it a couple of days ago. The bathroom hasn't been cleaned in a few weeks but somehow it feels OK.....

Am I finally...starting to feel at home? It has been about 1.5 years so it is a long time coming, but I feel really happy if that is really the case. I was just thinking, as I walked home from the bus stop today, that if not for the location of this place which is so far away from everything else, I wouldn't be able to have long commutes and bus rides (unless I go out of my way to have them, I guess). I'm even (!!) starting to get used to forcing myself to leave the house earlier so that I am less and less tardy than before.

I also exercised today (pilates) so I feel a good kind of soreness in my muscles.

I'm also trying a new thing (inspired by the Noom app) where I try to plan meals a few days in advance at a time and I'm quite excited about it.

I just want to embrace and treasure this feeling for as long as I can.

2024-06-22, 10:32 p.m..
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