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I didn't realise what tomorrow was until it suddenly dawned on me on the bus ride home today. I was thinking so much about whether to still head to the office when it was already 6.30pm - eventually I decided not to and my decision was vindicated when I saw the double decker bus heading towards the bus stop. B)

In some ways, it feels like the last year has been a waste - it has just passed by too fast, without me really achieving anything. at the same time, it was really the time when I dialled back and tried harder to go back to who I am and what I love, most likely because at one point I was feeling really lost and miserable and I really needed to do something about it.

so in a way I am quite happy, because I managed to not just get lost in the flow. I still don't know whether I made the right decision to leave, or to go where I'm going. All I do know is that I was stuck in a rut and I needed to feel like I was back in control.

can I continue to grow from here? I want to NOT stop doing things that scare me. that is the hard part. and the thing that scares me the most.....

2015-05-10, 3:49 p.m..
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