} some things that I do know

nightmares. I had them the last two nights. Or rather, I had one proper one on the plane, which had me screaming out loud "NOO!!" (embarrassingly...). Then last night, I was haunted by the monsters for what must have been at least half an hour? Not letting me go to sleep even though it was about 3am at the time. A toxic combination of jetlag and negativity...

There is still too much uncertainty, so I thought I should focus on the things that I do know:

1. I am quite addicted to A Game of Thrones (the book) and my favourite character is Lord Eddard Stark.

2. I love going for guitar classes, and signing up for the guitar class was one correct decision I have made in a long time. I do however need to cut my fingernails.

3. As much as the sleepless nights come with a certain badge of honour (whether real or perceived), I do love/need my sleep and I would like to catch my minimum 5 hours a day. Efficiency > hours. Decision made. [I saw that phrase in the blog of a senior who I have always looked up to, albeit anonymously.]

4. I cannot, cannot live for work alone - not when work consists of this. Unless it is meaningful, then I will continue to strive to care less.

5. I love London: as a city - the way there seem to be always initiatives to make it a better place to work and live in - for everyone, for the days and the memories I will always associate it with, and for the way I feel as a person when I am there.

6. I want to be a healthier person without becoming obsessed, or spending too much money. I want to choose to eat more fruits and vegetables on a regular basis. I want to be more active.

7. I want to go back to reading things in Bahasa Indonesia. even the comics (especially the comics!!).

8. I want to be more organised, and own less stuff.

9. I enjoy doing things which involve being busy with my hands. I like painting, drawing with charcoals - getting my hands dirty. I like to bake and even more, to cook. I like being able to figure things out and assemble things. One of these days I shall buy a small piece of D-I-Y furniture.

10. I am grateful for the friends that I know I have. The ones who have been there, and the ones who I therefore think/know will always be there.

11. Regardless of the motive, I am capable of being a kind person. I was just thinking the other day - They say lawyers are not good people. But since I am not such a good lawyer, maybe that makes me not such a bad person. Ha.

(this is all I can come up with for now.)

2014-09-06, 5:20 p.m..
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