} resolve (sortof)

met Ben at mass call yesterday, which turned out to be v nice. he has always been one of the Inspirational Figures in my life although i doubt he knows that and i am too paiseh to tell him. i mentioned, half-jokingly, that i've been thinking every few days about quitting. his reaction was one of concern, which scared me at first ("oh no now i have to talk seriously") but turned out to be good? he mentioned that he also thought abt leaving in his second year (in favour of an offshore firm - i don't have such lofty alternatives though) but decided to stick it out in the end. he asked if it was the work or the people, and i said, the work ..aha. he said then can try it out first - if it was the people, then leave asap because people never change (:| iztrue). but if it's the work, it might not be so different elsewhere...

gave me some reassurance, although that's been more or less my decision i think. (also, it's not very funny to tender on my first day as an associate.) more or less decided that i will stick it out at least to the end of this year, or next year. at that point, will ask for more contentious work if necessary. if it can't be worked out, should leave before i get too comfortable.

i see people working twice, three times as hard and i should focus on bettering myself for now.

2013-07-28, 7:53 p.m..
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