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don't really deserve a break now since the writ is still due tomorrow, but decided to take a break out of necessity... last night i thought i was losing my soul, this afternoon i thought i was very slowly losing my sanity. not in the usual kind, like when you have omg 732817367237 things to do and then you are going INSANE and working on OVERDRIVE, but really just mentally not feeling like myself anymore.

(the difference: in the former, i know exactly what i am doing and why i am going mad. in the latter, i don't know why i am going mad over nothing.)

felt better and more like myself after the meeting and the tutorial (ironically). maybe it made me feel better that i managed to survive a tutorial with 0 preparation (well, i read the questions a few mins before class started). but then again it was Crim and it has been the only Part B class i have really enjoyed because we've got a good tutor and it seems to be the most intuitive commonsensical course so far.

anyway, the temporary insanity made me realise (as does this blog post) than part B is consuming my life far too much. it is probably a good time to start on some projects/distractions.

on a random note, recently ive been thinking/wondering if i have been losing a lot of friends.. i dont know the answer to that but today i spoke to Jennings and i realised that this is at least one person i have re-found/found again over the course of this year so at least that is one thing to be happy about.

(in case Future Me is wondering, yes Jennings did ask to be mentioned here)

2012-08-23, 10:17 p.m..
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