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my day is so easily wasted when i have no plans for the day. it is just extremely difficult to start doing something when i can see the WHOLE long day stretch out ahead of me. before i know it it's 6pm and i have yet to do anything productive other than finding a muffin recipe. :|

to be fair the mid-sem break hasn't been thaat much of a break, even if i haven't been doing as much work as i should have.. i keep finding myself in a precarious position, i.e. i finish/accomplish something (which i consider quite major), then i take a little break to reward myself, then i get into a momentary panic like uh-oh i have to stop slacking NOW cos i have to do ___ now. T_T i guess it's bad that i have to keep taking breaks.. my only excuse is my sanity is at stake

what i really want to do is to not check emails, ignore everybody, etc - without feeling so damn guilty. unfortunately, time doesnt stop. and i DO realise that while i sit at home watching TV, other people are out there Doing Stuff and actually Accomplishing Something.

my problem is i am so slow at doing things. first of all, i take forever to even get the motivation to do something. and then of course comes the thing itself, i get distracted, etc. i often want the luxury of being able to take my time to do a particular thing, but the problem is i keep wasting my time with stupid things, so instead of having a day to complete something i end up with a couple of hours the night before.

nevertheless, things that i AM proud of accomplishing this week:
- sending in my visa application
- finding work skirts in my mum's cupboard -- so i definitely will have enough
- buying my first set of make-up (although i owe this one to denise)

aiyah everything else is unfinishable at the moment

2012-02-24, 10:07 a.m..
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