} BALLS!

i realised a little too late that there was a pretty serious problem with my essay. after all, how can i possibly answer a question that asks me to look at Singapore case law by constantly saying that "there are currently no local cases on this issue"!!

so at about 5:50AM this morning I was faced with the horrifying prospect of having to redo and rethink most of my essay. All i can say is, thank God for the deadline extension, thank God for Hari Raya Haji!! Muslims and Christians may fight but I think God and Allah collaborated on this one. (unless they are really one and the same, which is what I've personally suspected all along. :P) (there i go, discussing controversial topics with myself.)

it's not too bad right now because I've at least passed the halfway mark with respect to the word count (this paper is reminding me a lot of the paper i did in Croatia where i magically conjured 2,874 words, half of them within the last 1.5 hours o_o ...on a topic i really need only one sentence to talk about). but i don't think i've passed the halfway mark with respect to the WORK as in reading i need to do, because essentially what i put in over the weekend came to little to nothing and i need to find a way to salvage the situation??? (there is/will be a gaping hole of about 800 words)

so i've been surrounding myself with comforting things like a cup of tea, a breakfast of indomie (havent had that for breakfast in YEARS!), and my bolster. :X amazing how i dont like being pampered by others but how i always feel the need to pamper myself. like a baby, really. (sigh) and, my senior's blog, rediscovered today, which is full of all sorts of inspiring/meditative/etc reflections.

in other news, i am so HAPPY to ANNOUNCE (once again, to myself ...) that my mum has gotten a job! i have been absolutely going bonkers being at home with her around so much... Yes, i know i am Evil and will go to hell because surga ada di tapak kaki ibu (heaven is at the underside of your mother's foot) (engrish translation, oops). but truly, i have been going INSANE! but soon all will be well with the world again. :')

also, my dad said something interesting yesterday (he also said something about Iceland, which was also interesting though random). I wonder.

i have been going to church the past two mondays now but can't go today. :/ church is much better on a weekday, less chaotic. also i think i prefer going by myself than with other people because i've been needing more divine intervention than ever (ahah) and i feel so self-conscious when i pray (like, properly) in front of people i know. religion i think will always be more or less a personal affair for me. just as well since i seem to have my own weird conceptions about it and i kind of think other people who don't agree are just stupid HAHA. :X at the same time im not keen on changing any other people's own perceptions either, they're entitled to it. so, better to avoid talking about it really.

2011-11-07, 2:09 a.m..
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