} missed the feeling of staying up

blogging now because i dont feel like sleeping yet. i will Seriously regret this tomorrow morning. :/ im in such a holiday mood now though, dont feel like working... or thinking about the Schengen visa (still havent worked out where or when to apply for it, embassies are so unhelpful are they promoting their tourism OR NOT)... or cleaning up my desk which is looking like a mini warehouse. one which may have creatures breeding inside. :|

but interning at Straits has been good so far. i think im learning more than from my previous internship, at the pace im going so far anyway. which is cool. and it constantly surprises me how everyone is So Nice there. even Mr Raju who im so shit scared of because i think he hated me since the first day uhh :| but i think he's a nice guy (despite being so damn scary).

currently the only intern though, but maybe new people will be coming in tomorrow? that will be fun i think :) i met some interns on friday (i was their last day though) one from RJ (so young o_o) and two from TP. ah, we were all so sincere about our dreams back then. its a refreshing change from the skepticism/cynicism/pessimism that seems to come naturally with old age. :p i've been through the 'is-this-what-i-want-to-do-with-my-life' train of thoughts so many times in my head that it cant help getting boring. we need to talk about something more interesting, like Lee Kuan Yew calling Kim Jong-Il a 'flabby old chap'. (uh, who's the old one here?)
(but i guess he is a little flabby)

it has also been Awesome to have gloria back, and hanging out with the brudders like old times. :D havent got much more to say about that, i think it sort of speaks for itself.

honestly when i look at people like gloria, denise or suhui, its inspiring because these are people who have fought for what they want. im not sure i can say the same for myself but i guess im also still figuring out what i really want.

What I Really Want. i take that really seriously now i think, i've gone off shopping because i find it so hard to decide when i really want something, now. it was partly all the mess (literally & physically) in my life, and partly denise's degree project theme, that made me really want to make sure that every single thing I own really really counts.

i also need to make sure that every single thing i DO, really really counts. but normally im so closed-minded anyway i need to go the opposite direction for this one. :p

ok i really need sleep now. will dream about breakfast tomorrow. 8) what should i eat? mmm

2010-12-06, 1:06 a.m..
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