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after the rant yesterday i actually promised/told myself that i have released all negative energy and i should stop being a shit the next day. but i was still a shit today anyway :/ i'm working on it.

and i am way, way behind on my summer to-do list! which is, mostly, to tour galleries. and to revise my cover letter and send off internship applications for december. :/ aiyahh not again...... i really have to do it. right now. !!!

i was just reading The Red House mystery by AA Milne (yup, the Pooh guy) and figured out that the real secret in thrillers is to put significance on ordinary things. have the character scan the room and, seeing everything in place, heave a sigh of relief. but then...no. there is a niggling suspicion, something is wrong. some little thing is missing, some little thing is there which should not be there. it drives the reader (i.e. me) crazy afterwards because then i panic when i see ordinary things (i.e. everything) because i worry that they are not so ordinary after all.

anyway i think its probably one of my favourite detective/murder mystery stories i've read so far, except that i guessed the answer correctly from the start. not out of any real intelligent guesswork but just a feeling. :/ the whole thing was well written and i liked the detective and the dialogues and everything a lot, but just that little surprise element was disappointingly lost.

tomorrow is the trial at jones. :S im nervous of course. when am i ever not nervous *sigh*. funny how i worked 2 years as a barista and in future i hope to be the local equivalent of a barrister. and tomorrow i have a trial at jones and yet if im ever successful next time i should be fighting many trials indeed, though in a completely different place. ha ha. life has its little jokes. maybe i should learn bartending the last summer before im called to the Bar. that should exhaust the pun possibilities nicely.

i suspect if i make it as a lawyer i will be the annoying one who will make as many Bar jokes as possible.

but anyway, i AM really nervous about tomorrow. i havent waitressed in half a year and the last time i did it i wasn't good to begin with. :/ oh no oh no oh no.

2010-06-06, 10:49 p.m..
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