} boring rant about the paper and the trauma its causing

i made myself finish the bulk of my paper yesterday, and i was so proud of myself then, but i think that was because it was 3 AM in the morning. ... now that i'm much more awake i feel quite confident that it's all, like, crapshit (if shit could shit, it would be that bad). (but i havent had the guts to look through it again, yet)

but oh well i think i kinda know the problematic parts and hopefully some smart editing will do the trick.

the paper is so problematic cos the moment i found the topic for it, i immediately knew, kind of, what i wanted to get out. to the point where i have my conclusions even before i've written out the arguments. and along the way its like, IDEAAAZ flying all over the place and i have to try to jot it all down. now the crappy feeling that is clouding over me is that, i am confident that i had REALLY TERRIBLY GOOD ideas, but not the ability to do them justice and develop them. :/ like, turn them into words. which is really a pity, cos i dont think i've ever been so sure of what im saying before.

(even when i was arguing with denise that madrid is the capital of spain, i couldnt really be sure. but this time im SURE that i am RIGHT.)

oh well. it's just a term paper i guess. (i hope i scrape a B) and who knows maybe next time i get to write MORE papers and MORE chances to express my intelligent side hahaha. or maybe i will just spend my weekends watching dvds, yes i think that's more likely.

2009-11-17, 10:10 a.m..
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