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} i need to throw something :/ what i heard today, it just made me feel so low and helpless. i feel different, abnormal, from everyone else. i felt weaker, inadequate. as if i didnt have enough insecurities already? and i longed more than anything to be one of those normal laughing people. i want to be strong because i dont want this to be a big deal. i dont know why this has to be a big deal, either, or why im so upset about it. maybe because it's attached to one of my bigger insecurities? i dont know. sometimes i wondered how i would feel in this kind of a situation. now i discover that i am mostly, just angry. it sucks, it sucks, its not fair, its not fair, its not fair. what makes me angriest is the fact that i CANT CONTROL IT. what is the sum of my parts? really?
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