} yes man?

God has been good to me so far.. the legal theory paper was alright, although on hindsight i think i completely missed the point of the questions hahaha. but i felt like 'YES i spotted the right question and therefore can use my prepared answer verbatim!' at the time and that was a priceless feeling even if it was deluded.

contract paper yesterday was surprisingly alright too. i came to school with no memory of most of the cases in the syllabus (its a closed book paper) but i was surprisingly calm. i guess the right word is 'resigned' or, as i prefer to say, 'doomed'. but oh well. it wasnt that bad. i amused myself by randomly guessing the relevant cases from the given caselist... i think i actually ENJOYED the exam. which is very different from last sem when i really went crazy studying up until the very last minute... this time i actually came in the auditorium half an hour early?? so i ended up just praying for half an hour. lol. (thank you again God.)

but anyway i kind of made up my mind, that whatever happens im not going to make myself feel guilty over it. i didnt completely lose my mind over exams this sem, i whined less, i brought myself out of little-law-school-land more. which i like. i was going to say that i did something really bad last week. i did something bad because i went to work.. 2 days before the contract exam. i felt really bad for agreeing to work (they were short staffed), and resolved that this summer i would work on Learning To Say No.

but maybe that shift was the very thing i need... not that i worked extra hard and finished studying or whatever after that, but at least i stayed sane. i rolled my eyes at my boss when he said 'see, lucky you have me and this place!' but secretly i would say thats true. haha. and maybe i resolved the wrong thing. i think i've been saying No to alot of things this sem. even recently. and maybe what i need to learn is to say Yes more. its way too late to get those opportunities that have passed of course, but hopefully God will continue being kind to stupid ol me and let a few more come my way.

anyway, crim exam on thursday and i have that calm/doomed feeling still. lol. i hope thats a good sign.

btw, this is really awesome. alphabetical goodness. a bit reminiscent of something i saw at the biennale last year, only quirkier.

2009-05-05, 7:18 p.m..
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