} non-vague update!

i was reading my really REALLY old entries in this diary and smiling at how ridiculous some of them are... and its also pretty cool how, when i read a particular thing, the corresponding memory would somehow 'replay' in my head..... and then i thought i havent been writing about school/life enough nowadays, i tend to get easily pulled into Vagueland but i should really avoid that cos ten years down the road i want to be able to smile and remember these times when i read back...

so. lets start with the complete failure that is the 2nd SLS assessment on monday... hahahaha. for some reason i just couldnt focus at all, i didnt know how to START and because of that i was too frustrated/stupid to get to doing it. in the end i only started proper (i.e., in coherent sentences and paragraphs) at about 4.30am on tuesday. the deadline was at 10am. WOOHOO. as i was typing i just remember thinking to myself, 'im not going to slack for international law. im going to keep up with readings. im not going to slack on the day of the assessment.' etc etc.

at about 8am i forced myself to stop, SOMEHOW ended off my crappy shit essay, took a shower, uploaded the document, and rushed to school cos i still had to print it out and submit the hard copy. i was kinda stoned and in a mess and i kept hoping that i could just zoom in and out of school without seeing anyone i know. (and then being forced to say hi, small talk etc.)

but my life being as it is, Timo got on the same bus as me. so of course when we got down i had to say hi, talk to him, although truth be told my brain was having a hard time keeping up with what was going on... haha. some people can survive on 3 hours of sleep...... and im not one of them. luckily Timo is a really nice guy though, he kept the conversation going although i was/am such a stoned boring ass.

what happened next was a godsend, cos Timo saw Yan Zhen in her car and we hopped in and got a ride up the hill! aha. so i reached the library early to print my essay, and i submitted half an hour before the deadline! awesomee... =)

and now im going to share something very interesting, because earlier on i said 'tuesday' like it was really far away, when in fact i just realised that it was only YESTERDAY! haha. i tend to lose track of days like this.. i think because in the afternoon i went to meet the max brenner girrrls at sentosa, and during the hours in between i was in such a lifeless stupor that it felt like an eternity had passed.

no really. i was just lying in front of the tv flipping channels...

i was probably jolted awake when i was picked up by Esther and Tracce. this is because, and i am not exaggerating, Esther is a FREAKING road hazard. i have never seen anyone else ACCELERATE so hard when they're making a turn. and during the drive home we got THIS close to jingle's car and my heart was beating so frikkin fast dammit!

anyway, so yes, yesterday was the max brenner's gathering + picnic for Jeannette's bday. =) props to Esther for organising such a great gathering & a GREAT surprise! the sight of Jingle & Mirah trying to hide their faces as we approached was really one of the funniest things ive seen in a longgg time... and then the many attempts at a 'jumping' photo, truth or dare, attempted boredom games..... though i think the real joy was in being with all of them again, and i really miss working with all of them... =/

and as we sat on the sand (well the picnic mat on top of the sand) looking at the stars (everyone doing their own random thing at the time, i was stoning as usual), i suddenly missed the brudders. :( not any one person in particular, just hanging out with the whole group. i thought of the picnic on SMU grounds (hahaaa) and the earlier one at sentosa, and i just sat there kinda emoing and wondering if we can have that kinda thing again in 3 or 4 years' time.

and come to think of it, the max b girls are so so different from the brudders, always crazy and doing something and snapping photos, and not that its a bad thing, it was just interesting to note that i was sitting there having a picnic on the same sands but with a completely different group of people.

it was really fun, though i think i still need to learn to open up in front of a completely new and different group of people. i think im not used to that now.

its like what i was talking about with Zara some weeks back i guess, that after you find a group of people that you can click really well with, it becomes hard to find anyone else that can come close, and you just get disappointed... but i think what ive decided is that i cant decide who i meet, or how well im going to click with them, but no matter who it is i should at least try to get to know them better and enjoy spending time with them no matter what, even if they're not going to be my best friends.

regain the old innocence of my early teenage years....

oh well. ive talked too much now. i should really do some work actually! =/

2008-09-24, 6:22 p.m..
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