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almost a week has passed in law school - in the thick of lectures, readings, confusing classes, library treasure hunt assignments (wtf man), figuring out what the heck 'constitutionalism' means (i have a hard enough time typing/pronouncing it), i finally get this precious time to write out my first impressions of law school. (i have to, so i can laugh about it if i graduate, or cry about it if i drop out. touchwood) (nah i dont really cry abt such things)

i have to be fair. there will always be times when i feel a little out of place, incompetent, unconfident, lonely and left out. but there have also been good moments, a few new friends, and i have to say at the risk of sounding like a nerd: law is FUN. haha. its probably the most interesting thing i've studied.

but the challenge is definitely there as well. i find it hard to even understand the readings, or what the professors are saying during tutorials sometimes. and sometimes i feel alone in this - everyone else seems to know a great deal more, and understand faster, etc etc. theres definitely the fear that i wont be able to cope, that i may well end up being part of the drop-out statistic.

but i guess the past few years i've been getting too comfortable in my little bubble. its probably time that i start facing my fears again.. i feel like im stuck in a rut sometimes, nailed in by my own fears and prejudices, and i guess the only way out is to get OUT.

haha not sure if im making sense anymore.

but anyway today i was starting to embrace whatever fears and discomforts i feel as part of this process

so i feel a little bit more excited about everything now.

reading su's and glory's blogs were also an uplift, although the subject matter is kinda emo. but it now feels like we're all going on our own little journey, and i feel more spurred to do my best in it.

i used to imagine that all of us would do pretty well and end up pretty happy in life. how can it be any other way, when we're a bunch of people who can pretty much laugh about everything? and i still do feel that way. i really hope whatever happens, we'll still be able to make room for one another in our lives.

thank goodness it isnt morning or i'd be a lot more emo

and anyway this post was supposed to be about law school. haha. oops.

going guitar-looking tomorrow! yay im excited. :D

2008-08-14, 9:26 p.m..
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