} unwanted wake-up call

i seriously do NOT want school to start tomorrow.

had the impression that at least the first week, with only lectures and no tutorials, would still be a breeze. then i was told that i should check my nus e-mail, and i did, and there was a TON of emails reg classes. and i found out that i DO have tutorials/seminars for 2 modules. wtf man! my feelings are officially cheated.

but more than that i think its the rough realisation that unless i keep an eye out for little announcements like this, im going to miss out on a LOT of important info, and unlike in school all these things are no longer announced, directly, in-your-face. i feel like i can no longer go around in this dream-like holiday state anymore, and as obvious as that sounds, it scares me.

im not yet up to keeping up with reality. and i wonder, every so often, if i made the right choice, and if i may not be dreading school so much if i had picked the other choice. would i enjoy it more? would i look forward to it more?

the only certain thing in life is uncertainty, right. but knowing that doesnt help. haha. it still feels horrible, this dread and fear and insecurity.

2008-08-10, 11:34 p.m..
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