} strange thoughts after a strange dream

i have been getting strange waves of emotion and nostalgia in the mornings. i dont know why, but it only happens in the morning... i start thinking about secondary school times, and jc times, and all the people who are going separate ways... and then i think about going to school, where none of those people will be there, and i feel incredibly alone and emo. especially when i realise what a failure i am at making new friends in uni. oh goodness... -_- haha.

i wish i could be nicer to my mum. haha sorry this is random. but i find it weirdly hard to share things with her with eagerness/enthusiasm rather than irritation, like most daughters should! right?? :S i hate/am not used to showing sentiment with my family.....

oh and i had a weird dream last night. i cant remember all of it but it involves the brudders... we were in a hugeee grass plain and the grass was bouncy so we would slide and bounce on it HAHAHA. and then there was someone watching us but i cant remember who or why. then the scene changed and we were walking around some townish area, and suhui wanted to show us the new Books Actually but she thought there wouldnt be time cos she had to go to work. so the rest of us hung out for a while and then i realised that I had to go to work even earlier. and i rmb denise saying, 'you're working on a thursday?'

it isnt unusual at all for me to work on a thursday, but when i woke up this morning i just had to double check that im really not working today...

2008-08-07, 8:54 a.m..
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