} bah bah bah bah bah

haha had the h3 paper today! and i must say, after what i said yesterday about giving up on my h3 exam, i think i am one big fat hypocrite, cos i still studied after that. but truthfully after i wrote that one sentence on my blog i found it much easier to study without panicking so much and thinking about the results so much. i quickly went into my 'so what if i fail' mode, and i duno if thats a good thing or not, but it helped me study so yeah i guess its a good thing.

then this morning, i was in a mad rush once again cos i had fallen asleep while studying last night, and i duno why, but it just felt bad. everything felt undone and unfinished, and so i was scrambling to just squeeze in some last-minute things ... and i continued, until i was in school.. then i met zhuang mao outside the classroom, and he kept telling me 'stop studying!' which would already be quite a lot coming from the top physics/chem/history/who knows what else student, but honestly that wasnt it, and i would have stopped looking through my notes if i was feeling fairly confident. but at that point i felt like i couldnt remember anything..... but at one point, i guess i felt bad, so i just closed my file and ..started praying for the best. haha.

and its not like i suddenly felt enlightened. i still felt as empty as ever. but i guess i just kept reassuring myself, or God reassured me, I duno really, that whatever it is they're gona test on, I know it. and even if I dont, i'll think of some way to crap about it. (cos when you have studied lit and/or been in ARC, you would have mastered the art of writing a lot about nothing.) and i felt better after that, and it actually feels so freeing to not be scrambling to look at notes before the exam.

and. yeah. it turned out allright. i mean, there were a lot of stuff that i couldnt remember, surprise surprise! haha. and i did something very stupid - i didnt read the instructions and did all 6 questions... only realised at the end that we were supposed to just choose 5. -_- ahh...well.

it feels weird now that exams are officially, officially over... just yesterday i still had thoughts of what i was gonna do once exams officially officially end and here i am... i duno what to do. haha. i had thoughts of making plans but now i am just so, so tired and lazy. i think i'll just do whatever i suddenly feel like doing. and right now i feel like procrastinating on everything i was planning to do after exams. so.. instead im going to start studying for a level!!!!

...just kidding. study, my ass la.

i feel like learning songs on guit actually. but those songs are too pro for me and i also want to learn a lot of other instruments etc but i am so super lazy & slow at learning new stuff... sigh does anyone want to learn with me? =( give me some motivation?? haha.

EDIT: FINALLY FOUND IT
i first heard this song on tvmobile on the bus and since then it's been driving me nuts cos it sounded so familiar and yet i couldnt figure out what its called, or where i heard it from before! and then when i watched mona lisa smile i heard it again, and just now i heard it again while watching nodame cantabile, and after all these coincidences (i've been having a lot of coincidences lately for some reason..) luckily i finally managed to find the title and composer or it would have driven me NUTS.


The Planets (Jupiter) - Holst

the part that has been driving me nuts is from about 3:57 to 5:34. and not to be nitpicky and all but... that performance sounds kindof messy. :S



2007-09-24, 2:12 p.m..
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