} simple in virtue

a person who humbles himself will be exalted, because he is free; he is not pulled down by the frustration of disappointment of expecting anything in return.

thats what yesterday's homily was about.. strange how, in my groggy state of mind, i was able to absorb the homily, when normally its the time when my mind shuts off by itself.

i think one of the hardest things to do in life is to be humble. its not that hard to do good things, but its hard to do them without expecting something in return, or without having at least that passing thought, 'this is a great thing im doing. im such a good person! everyone will see what a good person i am!'

and sometimes, even when doing things for other people, its hard to focus on them and them only, without thinking of myself for at least a little bit. always looking for recognition, assurance.

and i suddenly realised, this is what i've been struggling with. pride. if 7 years in ij should have taught me anything, it should have taught me about conquering pride. its right there, in the motto, on the badge i used to wear everyday for a good part of my school life.

simple in virtue, steadfast in duty.

how stupid i've been.

shouldnt be blogging too much actually nowadays, but suddenly i have a lot of things to blog about. in fact, i think i'll write another post right after this.

2007-09-02, 3:08 p.m..
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