} if you dont understand, read on

we cannot know the future, because we cannot know the present

that was taken from chimology.com .

haha just kidding. i hope you didnt click on that cos it might lead to some XXX website, with a lot of popups, you never know... =/ but um, its actually directly quoted from my physics revision package! haha. cool eh.

i didnt get it at all at first, cos it sounded more like something out of KI and didnt seem to fit in with any physics stuff at all. but then i read on and...ok still didnt get it, so i read on further... and as i started to understand, little by little, my mind somehow went back to that very first statement and i realised...

...wow. this is a pretty big thing that im learning. something so mind-boggling, so hard to digest. and when you understand something so big, so complex, it makes you feel...i dunno. its not like triumph, or you feel smart or whatever, its not the same as being able to solve a maths question haha. i just felt like i am part of something great. something great that many people have contributed to over years and years and years. and i probably wont be able to contribute to it, but at least i got to be a part of it.

and..i dunno. it was just a cool feeling. im proud of myself cos i finally finally understand the fundamentals of quantum physics. and um i guess what im trying to say is just that im pretty happy with myself, and i know i've done my absolute best in the given circumstances and...its ok if i do badly which i probably did.

though it still sucks when you still cant do the paper even after studying so hard. i dont feel regret, i know i did what i could, and i dont really mind bad grades, but i guess...all thats left is disappointment.

ah well. went to drown my sorrows (haha, jk) at ajisen ramen with anita & yingri, and it was good good food although we all felt so full after that for some reason. walked around then reached home...exactly in time for ellen! though i missed most of it in the end cos i started playing Game of life with my brother & cousin so fun hahaha. =D i earned the most money but still lost cos my brother got more Life tiles than me! =( BUT i invented a new ice cream flavour, a Better Mousetrap and a Toy Invention That Sells Big! which is so much better than winning the Nobel & Pulitzer prize (which my brother got), pfffffftt.

haha so yea in the end despite the horrible physics paper im still happee. haha just like yesterday's qt passage said... which is also on the same thing as the subject of the gospel during last sat's mass...

before I formed you in the womb
I knew you through and through
I chose you to be Mine

which is a lot about uncertainty, which is strangely enough also related to the quantum physics that i was studying last night and talked about earlier in this post haha. so its all one big-web-link-thing about uncertainty of where i am right now, where im gona end up, but that its ok cos i can only estimate the probability of where im gona end up and try my best, and the rest is up to God, and he will pull me through whatever the uncertainty and sorrow cos everything (incl the sorrow, incl the uncertainty, incl me) has a purpose. and that was a long sentence. mmm.

and btw i just got the scare of my life a few mins ago when my mum suddenly told me that she tried googling my name 'just for fun' and found something i wrote about a teacher. so i thought she found this blog and i was going 'omgomgomg' in my head and then she said ok go on, try googling your name... and i did, and actually the result that came up was this: click. so uhh ok im not sure if its really proper (or if its a BIT egoistic haha) to publish students' feedback like that without permission but erm i guess its ok since he really is a nice teacher.

btw, cool comedic singing rapping guitaring beatboxing duo:

they're somewhat reminiscent of the guys from EIC. =)

and cool thing: getting rid of fears. this idea is a million dollars.

and just to close off, random thought of the day:
if I could play any character in a Harry Potter movie (i.e. even the opp gender), I would be...

...one of the Hogwarts ghosts. without a doubt. all i have to do is fly around! and i prob get paid a lot. how fun is that heh.

2007-06-28, 8:52 p.m..
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