} what gives me a reason to wake up every morning

my alarm clock.

i mean seriously. even if i decide to go back to sleep, soon my sister's alarm clock would ring and i would wake up anyway. and even if i decide to go back to sleep again, and just never wake up, soon i will wake up because my neighbour would start playing the saxophone, because he plays the saxophone everyday and sooner or later i would be waking up to the tune of Beauty and the Beast. (what's the song called anyway. tale as old as time or something.)

but on a less literal note, i found this video a while back. the ... video-maker (?) made it for her friend, who apparently couldnt find a reason to live anymore. its really sweet, and i like the song (Still Fighting It by Ben Folds Five) so i thought i'd just share it..

truthfully, after watching the video, more than being impact-ed by the messages, i only felt a kind of longing for TIME to just sit around and drink coffee and stone. but i guess thats because when i first found the video it was towards the end of the holidays and i was struggling to finish my homework. =|

anyway. nowadays when i stone, which is quite often, i cant help but think about what im gonna do after A levels. its the school's fault, seriously, all their talk abt portfolio-ing etc etc. i am now seriously considering taking some form of Art or Design course, although it might be risky, not able to find a job, not able to find a job with enough pay to eat 3 meals a day, etc. but feh wadever.

my options now are (in order of preference):
1. work hard for an art scholarship to europe
2. take a gap year and literally WORK to get enough money to study in europe
3. study art in singapore
4. cop out and study something more boring. like econs.

well um onto other news (haha or i can go into media and be a newscaster) syf auditions are in a few days (*drum roll*) and as SL i get to be one of the 'judges', haha. so fun! =P suhui suggested that i should be like Simon Cowell. so i think i will start brushing up on my british accent from now on. and watch more american idol. =D

ok i better go do my homework soon. tonight there's only nip/tuck which i decided not to ever watch because its too scary. =| so i guess i can do my homework without getting too distracted, aha. BUT tomorrow is CSI! yes its actually on TUESDAY last monday i stupidly went to sit in front of the tv and wait oh so happily for the show to start, only to find that it was nip/tuck. er. yeah. one of my stupid moments, yes.

oh and this week is the 2-hour SEASON FINALE of PRISON BREAK! haha i got cheated for the second time last week cos i thought it was the finale and yet they still didnt break out yet, wth, haha. but this week they're FINALLY going to do it and not everyone will live sob. i hope the old man makes it. and lincoln, cos he almost died on the electric chair and he was framed, tmd. i dont really care about the rest, haha.

2007-01-29, 8:29 p.m..
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