} last goodbye?

i had my ears 'syringed' today. basically the doctor cleaned them for me, hahaha. apparently i had a serious wax build-up problem, because the lumps that came out were kind of.. huge. o_o

anyway, it's strange now because everything sounds so much clearer and i feel like i can hear even the faintest sounds. like for example when i walk i can hear the rustling of my shorts or the shuffling of my feet .. and when i put on my t-shirt i realised how DAMN NOISY I AM. all the rustling and everything.

it's strange but it's good, in a way. i feel like i have a better measure of how loud and how soft things are really supposed to be, and that comforts me somehow. now at least i will know if i am talking too softly or too loudly i guess.

i've been having a lot of thoughts today. firstly because i went to the airport... to send off suhui and gloria who are going on their OCIP. it felt really cool walking through the airport and i thought of the movie The Terminal almost immediately. the movie makes living in the airport seem so fun. i think i want to try it one day. in a safe airport of course, where terrorists are not likely to bomb in the middle of the night.

anyway, as we said goodbye, i suddenly had a thought ... cos even as we hugged and said goodbye, take care, etc etc there is barely any sadness in the air. i mean of course i would miss them while they're gone but not to the extent of being totally miserable in their absence. i would find something to occupy myself and i would see them again pretty soon anyway.

but then i thought, what if i ever come to a time when i have to say goodbye to someone, forever? the thought really scared me. what if someone close to you goes away for ever? and you'd have to spend the rest of your life never hearing their voice again, or hearing their jokes, or having them laugh at your jokes, or just seeing them. it would be so weird, right. and what would you say at the farewell? what do you say to someone who you will never, ever see again?

until now i still dunno... =

2006-11-17, 9:49 p.m..
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