} something about people

people are so interesting. everyone is different, and yet everyone is the same. as in, most people are so typical, so predictable. and yet its because they are so predictable that through their actions i can feel a sense of familiarity, and im constantly reminded that im one of them.

sorry, this is going to be a very jumbly post, so please bear with me, cos i myself have trouble organising the thoughts in my head...

sometimes i like to look at people, notice their actions, try to find a pattern. and when it comes to what people tend to do in life, well i think they generally either a)work on something that they are good at or b)work on something that they are lacking in.

people in category (a) recognise their own talent and they want to be better in this area. but i think people tend to do more of category (b). because its so much easier to see other people's talents and correspondingly, your own weaknesses. people want to be good at what they're bad at. they want to have what they lack. they want to feel complete, feel competent.

because of these 2 sides that often cloud our choices, it makes it hard to distinguish what you like doing. because you might just like doing something simply because you're good at it and you enjoy seeing the good results. or you might be just obsessed with it temporarily because you're lousy at it and you just want to better yourself.

when my parents try to discuss with me about my future, for example, they always make the same mistake. they would first ask, what do you want to do after JC? and naturally i would say i dunno, cos i really dunno (lol). then they would ask, well what are you good at? and then the rest of the conversation would be basically useless cos it doesnt have much to do with what i like.

and i think thats really important cos you dont always know what you're good at. sometimes you try something and you think you're pretty good at it. other times you just feel like shit at everything you do... but no matter what, if you just stick with what you like, whether you are good or bad at it, you should never go wrong.

...i think. sorry, im not a certified career guidance counselor. (although suhui did suggest that i should consider being one since i cant make up my bloody mind what i want to do.)

actually, i have always thought that i would go into design or something like that, but now im not very sure. i know what i want, but not what i want to be. lol. if that makes sense. i mean, i know what i want. i want to be able to make people stop and ponder, i want to be able to shock and surprise them. but most of all i want to make people laugh. it feels good when you make people laugh. the feeling that there is something within you that makes others so happy... that must be the most wonderful feeling of all. =)

-- end corny-ness

2006-11-01, 9:01 p.m..
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