} sum wan. annie wan. this thing is shamelessly taken from su's class blog, but haha its too damn funny not to be shared...
HAHAHA. just found out that i failed the physics online test. by 1 mark. 1 STUPID MARK!!! so, anyway, that was why my physics tutor wanted to see me. cos he was concerned about my physics grade. i remember feeling all paranoid last night that he somehow found my blog or heard me talking about how much i suck at physics and how much i hate it. i feel so stupid now that i know its just cos of the test. :| anyway after the 'consultation' i felt kind of unsettled. i think it was guilt. cos i guess i havent been putting in the kind of effort i should be putting into the subject that im not so good at. maybe i kind of gave up on it, subconsciously, and stopped bothering to revise it more or something. but its harder to give up on something when there's other people's expectations, i guess. i stopped caring about my parents' expectations some time ago, but now that im once again running the risk of disappointing someone else other than me, im beginning to feel the slight twinge of guilt. its heartening to know that someone still cares, but on the other hand its also a bit irritating. like theres this little part of me that just wants to be left alone to wallow in failure and misery... and here comes this stupid guilt that spoils everything. i know im making a big deal out of this. but first it was incompetence in physics, then maths, that finally made me suspect that i've been making wrong choices all this time. and that leads to other things and im beginning to think that if i'd made my choice differently, my entire jc life might have turned out totally different too. everytime i think about it i feel like hitting my head against the wall and screaming 'damn, why did i do that'. but its too late for regret and all i can do is make the best out of the situation i guess. even if the best may not be very good at all. moving on to something less emo... early on i decided to support blackburn cos they were at the bottom of the premiership table. and i just did it for fun really, i dont think i've even heard of the club before, haha. but now they've climbed all the way up to 13th and out of the last 3 spots of the dreaded relegation... surprising, in a pleasant way. 8)hope they will trash middlesbrough too. haahaa. :D
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