} a dark thought?

sometimes i get a bit scared of people who are capable of disliking someone, simply because that person is the way s/he is. not because that person did something bad against the other person or something. but just because s/he is considered weird, irritating, or just not worth the time.

maybe 'scared' isnt the right word. but i almost see myself distancing myself from those people, or building a tighter wall against them.

its like, if you could think that way about someone else, even though they didnt do anything wrong to you, how would i know that you wont do the same to others? to me? what if one day i go crazy, or something, will i still be worth your time? will you still accept me?

or maybe you have been talking behind my back all this while. maybe i have never really been accepted. i wouldnt know.

its not that i expect people to be perfect. i guess its just the way i am. so easily affected. mmm. haha, i dunno, just needed to let this out.

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haaha i have yet to start studying. D: tomorrow is my brothers bday. :) went to get a present for him earlier on. i wanted to get him one of those Horrible Science books cos hes such a maths & physics freak, haha. i still get scared of him sometimes. err but anyway. the book was too ex so i got him a roald dahl book instead, which came with a free badge. yay! :)

haha. i dunno what else to write now. oh yeah. the toilet at west mall is very disgusting and smelly. try to avoid using it as far as possible...... but on the other hand the cubicles have a lot of vandalism which can be quite interesting to read. hahaha. someone wrote, on the door of the cubicle i was in, something like 'THEY SHOULD PUT A FULL-LENGTH MIRROR HERE'. hahahahaha. WHAT THE HELL. like i want to look at myself while im doing my business. :| there was also a lot of 'I HATE _______' and '________ SUCKS' messages. tsk. girls can be so bitchy..

2006-09-02, 10:33 p.m..
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