} brain stew

im currently having my supper. yes. at 12.30 am. hahaha. although its just bread that was meant for my breakfast (still tastes ok) and a cup of cheap coffee. see, this is what happens when i leave my tutorials to the last minute. am currently in the midst of integration tutorial 2. taking a break now though. 3 questions left (and God knows how many I skipped, but i dont care already... :P)

at least i have no lessons tomorrow. thank goodness for teachers day.

oh well. anyway im taking a break now because i just finished attempting 20+ integration questions (because qn 6 has 22 parts. who the heck set this sadistic tutorial anyway). and my brain is melting. i hope the coffee will help.

..CRAP almost spilled coffee on the bed.

anyway today was a very cold day. heavy rain, wind, etc. well it didnt start out that way. and i had the strangest feeling that as the weather got colder my day became progressively worse. haha. maybe its just my imagination.

..ok i just had my train of thought interrupted, again, cos my mum just came out of the room half-asleep telling us that its 1am already. hahahaa. sorry for my ungratefulness but that was quite unnecessary. although i look blur and spaced out all the time, i do know that its night time when the sky gets dark like this. -_-

haha ok back to today. i think today's lesson(? theme? moral of the story? haha dunno) is gratefulness. i find it so easy to complain about things... like, there are kids out there in africa who cant even go to school, or have enough to eat, and even have to work, and some of them even have to resort to things like prostitution, and here i am stressing out over not being able to do physics and maths. im such a hypocrite. i tell people not to stress and i myself am stressing. wth. haha.

and ok, so maybe its a bit too much to compare myself to the kids in africa, but i guess the point is just that i got to remember that no matter what deep shit im in, there is always someone out there who has it worse. and before i go on about how sick i am of this life, etc etc etc, i should think about changing my attitude and perceptive cos MY life should be shaped the way i want it to be, NOT by the circumstances that im in.....

ok not sure if that made any sense at all but anyway my brain is melting so no surprise if that didnt make sense.

anyway back to maths. will update on (pathetic) progress laterrrrr.

[edit] 2.25am

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA I FINISHED INTEGRATION 2. AT LAST. what the hell. the rest of the class is at differential equations now..?? damn it. oh well. still quite proud of myself.

anyway thanks to the coffee i am now WIDE AWAKE. and im listening to westlife. haha ok that was so random. but i am feeling high now because of it. so i dunno if im gonna sleep tonight hahah. :D

[edit] 5.02am

haha. really couldnt sleep. -_- anyway had some (non-homework) stuff to do. i really hope i wont be too tired tomorrow (later), cos its going to be a greaattttt day. :)

anyway just wanted to post one of the many niceeee westlife songs before i take a 1hour nap. (wow this entry is super long. haa.)

try again - westlife

hush now, dont you cry
there will be a better day
i promise you
we can work it out
but only if you let me know
whats on your mind

baby, you thought it was forever
through any kind of weather
but someday you will find what you're searching for

try again, never stop believing
try again, dont give up on your love
stumble and fall; is the heart of it all
so when you fall down, just try again

smile now, let it go
hey you'll never be alone

if you cant fight the feeling
surrender in your heart, remember
love will set you free

baby, you thought it was forever
you would always be together
but someday you will find what you're searching for

try again, never stop believing
try again, dont give up on your love
stumble and fall; is the heart of it all
so when you fall down, just try again

baby, when a heart is crying
it sometimes feels like dying
and teardrops fall like rain

baby, you thought it was forever
you would always be together
but someday you will find what you're searching for

try again, never stop believing
try again, dont give up on your love
stumble and fall; is the heart of it all
so when you fall down, just try again



2006-08-31, 12:34 a.m..
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