i created another journal, cos i realised that i need a place to keep track of stuff that i do. i will use it to record down eg., my unofficial 'training' (need to retake napfa haha), songs im trying to play on guit/piano, stuff that im drawing, etc. eventually i will develop it into a kind of personal website, so i can practise my html/css too. :D

anyway its not that i want people to leave unnecessary comments or whatever, that journal is mostly for my own record purposes... but just posted it anyway cos if i dont post here for some time it probably means i have been living a healthier, less complain-full life and posting more on that journal instead. :) yeah. so look out for it. :)

this blog will be kept for ranting purposes.

anyway today wasnt a very bad day compared to the rest of the week. i managed to finish gp va in time (finally!), and the aq test wasnt that bad... to add to the relief, our pw group didnt have to see ms maureen ng about our gpf, phew. thanks to my grp members for cooperating and working hard for the gpf. now you all can be selfish and work hard on your own EOMs and I&Rs, but must bring back ideas for our WR and OP!! :P

i had a great 2hr+ chat with denise on wednesday! it was just so good to let so many things out. its like being relieved after a few days' worth of constipation... (bah, gross analogy, sorry. this is why im not a lit student.) it was nice catching up with her too. although its not like we havent met for 213812837 years or something, we still had a LOT to talk about. i miss my long bus rides home with her! :(

and after that, when i got home, the first thing i did was to open the 'present' from weijun... very nice things inside. thanks weijun! and the note was ... it was just great reading it. especially the message about being an SL. came right on time when i was feeling so dismayed about leaving my beloved guitar 3 to be the guit 2 sl. sigh. sometimes i even feel like i wld rather be a non-exco member if it means i can stay in guit 3.

i guess im just disappointed because all this while i have been looking forward to getting to know the people in guit 3 more, esp the IPs who were in the senior ensemble. in a way reading weijun's note made it worse cos i found out that we share some common things, eg., we both dont like pink and we both like rooney! :P haha.

but anyway, ive decided after reading the note, i can be sad and disappointed all i want now, but i have to get over it by monday! must keep an open mind, etc, and do my best even though i dont really know the people in section 2. hopefully i will be able to reach out to them & encourage them etc etc so we can be a great section and ensemble and get that GOLD WITH HONOURS! :)

to tell the truth though, im scared. and not confident at all. monday... it can be either a day for me to take a new step forward, or yet another day for me to keep crouching in the corner and remain a coward. i have made the decision. just need to follow it through. :S

2006-07-21, 12:18 a.m..
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