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i just finished reading a book upside down. i mean i was lying upside down, not reading the book upside down. my brain isnt advanced enough for that.

so all the blood rushed into my head and everything. it was a surprisingly good feeling (not the blood rushing into my head, but finishing the book) and i felt somewhat lightened. although it may have been because i couldnt feel my legs at all after lying upside down. i dont know what im talking about anymore. sorry. i will get back on track now.

anyway, so the book has just cheered me out of my gloom and grumpy-ness which has been hanging over me like some persistent raincloud. i've been grumpy the past few days, for no reason at all, i guess its just mood swings. so im very sorry if i have said anything stupid to you at all.

not that im used to saying smart things. i mean im sorry if i have done or said anything particularly stupid to you. im actually not good at saying clever things, so whenever i come up with something even slightly witty i would feel rather proud of it. and my brain would replay the moment over and over in my head like its an oscar-winning thing. sorry that makes me like such a loser, but its true. :P that's really the sort of thing that goes on in my head sometimes. -_- (other times its just blank.)

i keep forgetting what i wanted to say. oh yeah. anyway now im less grumpy and im particularly less grumpy towards my mother. i have been quite irritable with her for the past few days/weeks which i think is kind of unfair because she wouldnt know if im feeling ticked off at anything, even if its something small like the computer refusing to start. but i have been more polite and patient with her, for the past few minutes at least, so i hope i can keep that up and not be a bitch insolent child.

im getting over my post-world-cup disappointment. but its sad that once its over, now the headlines are about the whole north-korea-nuclear-bomb thing and terrorist attacks again. its like the world was fighting and fighting, but everyone stopped to watch the world cup, and once its over they start fighting again.

whats EVEN WEIRDER, is that while the other side of the world is having this panic and crisis etc etc, everyone here is still going about their own way like nothing big is happening. i mean, i guess its natural to be that way, and it would be quite ridiculous to start a panic here as well. but its just weird.

like how ms sharon phua talked about a 'very serious issue' during assembly yesterday, and it turns out the 'very serious issue' was about some students eating on the mrt. and how she names these cases stuff like the 'sushi case' and 'hamburger case'. and then i hear news about some students in INDONESIA who are going around burning down their schools.

its like, while the rest of the world are in a mess, all fighting and struggling, singaporeans in this floating little utopia of theirs are fretting about eating on the train. and common test marks.

haha. i mean. i dunno what to say.

2006-07-14, 9:34 p.m..
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