everything feels so surreal at the moment. i feel as if i can wake up tomorrow, and it will still be december 2005, and i've never gone to jc, and everything was just a stupid dream.

seriously, my feelings toward the class have been changing a lot. sometimes i feel that i really like my class but other times i feel so stupid and out of touch.

somehow i feel that although im almost always surrounded by people, im always alone, for this past 2 months. i dunno how to explain it.

and then there's the lack of motivation to do work.. i think the only thing i look forward to in school is the lunch period & cca. still got econ homework to do... and a ton of tutorials.. only been 2 months and i already dont feel like going to school anymore, haha. :(

i know its better to just go with the flow and not think and complain like this.. but my mood has been so lousy since last week. bah.

i know i seem very laid back most of the time but actually the pressure is building up. cos:

1. dunno if i really want to stay at nj/my current combi or not.
2. guitar concert coming up! i still suck at my part.
3. im quite behind with the tutorials & lectures... not really understanding some stuff.
4. other commitments like the websites.

im really looking forward to the cj ROCKAFELLASKANK and the GENUS concert next week to cheer me up man.. i seriously need it.

2006-02-27, 9:29 p.m..
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