} my last bow

i've been going a bit cuckoo lately. as in, my mood/mental state have been fluctuating quite a lot.

and i really dont think that writing in this blog is alleviating anything, maybe it makes everything more intensified or something.

like, sometimes i write an entry in a fit of irritation/angst and later on i tend to regret it, and i dont want people to read what i wrote. but by the time i realise this its usually too late, and i end up making everyone feel bad/worse because my entries are always so demoralising. i dont really know how to say it.

and since its not helping anyone or anything im gonna stop blogging, get back to reality and things that are important to me.

i mean, this blog is quite important to me but its not all that.

and maybe an extra half hour of fresh air instead of staring at a computer screen will do me good and help me retain some of my remaining sanity.

so yeah. i dont know if/when i will ever go back to blogging. maybe i will change my mind within the next hour, im fickle-minded.

but anyway im leaving the blog as it is cos i spent such a fucking long time on the layout and i dont want to get rid of it. so yeah.

i'll miss blogging but for my good, and the good of everyone else.. bye. :)

2005-07-12, 10:21 p.m..
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