} am i living it right

i tried to organise all the notes and stuff i would need for revision, but it kinda didnt work out... (it never does.) on saturday and sunday i slacked, so i just started today, and i spent about 3-4 hours clearing the shit out of my desk, so in the end i didnt have time to organise my notes.

oh well. i dont have much time to revise yet anyway. still got lots to do. (and im still sitting here procrastinating, haha.)

i had a bit of a withdrawal symptom from lack of gundam seed (rah). im gonna miss all those late nights, all the stupid attempts to make the dvd player work, all the times i got really really annoyed by kira's why-did-they-make-me-a-coordinator extreme angst. sigh. :(

i found an online shounen-ai manga today. i normally dont read this kind of thing (...) but i read this one since i rather liked the webmaster's style.. and it turned out to be pretty good. i had to laugh at some parts and my brother was peeking so i had to cover up the URL because little kids shouldnt see shounen-ai. tsk.

oh and in case you are getting the impression that i spent all day glued to the computer screen... well no i WASNT. aha. (surprise surprise.) after cleaning out my desk i cleaned out my closet, so i no longer have a big mountain of laundry at the edge of my bed (can finally stretch my legs after months and months....). and i found out that im really pathetic, because more than half my closet contains stuff that i can't/won't wear. i had to find ways and means to stuff in the things that i actually wear. haha. :|

and i practised my guitar! but it was a demoralising experience because i couldnt get it right. bah. must be my lack of practice. now i only practise the night before my guitar class, which is monday nights, and i feel guilty about it but somehow it doesnt stop me from being so bloody lazy. T_T

i think im gonna screw up at class tomorrow. and its already one of my last few lessons too...

sometimes i hate myself for being such a lazy ass. hur. fark it lah

so what, so i've got a smile on
it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
don't believe me
don't believe me when i say i've got it down

2005-07-04, 11:02 p.m..
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