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oh fck. im hearing my phone ringing again. it was so damn loud. oh well. maybe i will just become schizophrenic one day, but at this point in time i dont need to worry.. hahahaha.

anyway. now is the time of getting back exam papers etc... sigh. very sucky time. basically this is when people tend to judge you by their standards. so if you did badly, they have to pretend to be sad for you somehow. and if you did well, or better than them, they talk to you like you're some sort of freak or something.

naturally, effort is never given credit, so if you did well naturally its because you're damn smart or something.

please. if you're not concerned, if you just want to compare, if you just want to make yourself feel better about your own marks, if you dont fucking have anything useful to say, DONT ASK.

i mean i dunno. if i show that im happy about my marks, people think im gloating, and if i show indifference, they think im disappointed about my marks, which is never acceptable of course. what the fuck lar. if you've made preassumptions then dont ask anymore since you're stuck to your own fucking judgments anyway.

dont blame it all on the brain, man. its all about effort. if you didnt bother then dont fucking blame the people who did.

sorry all that rambling wasnt directed at anyone. its just a general thing. i know im at fault too sometimes. but theres just too much bullshit going on already. sheesh. maybe most of the time things arent meant seriously but they get out of hand..

..there are better things to talk/think about than exam results.

well. anyway

went to see cat cortes on yesterday with aileen, suhui, germaine & roseann.. went for lunch at far east, walked around, took neoprints, walked around, had ice cream, walked around... hahaha. basically a lot of walking. i was damn sleepy and my shoulders were aching for no reason so when i got home i just died. haha

going to see her again on monday i think. if i dont die or something. i think im getting a sore throat too, hahaha. what a way to spend the weekend.

the more than words tabs are damn hard to read/play. haha damnit. :( i'll probably take a few million years to learn it.

btw, another fucking jawdrop: CLICK

well just to end things off on a happy note..

i got a LOT of things to do now! yay! (this isnt meant to be sarcastic!)

2005-05-13, 9:46 p.m..
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