} lousy mood.

maybe i'm just really prone to making mistakes. failing. again and again and again. and what started off small became

big

when my brain started digging out every other small thing in the past

and im eaten up.

its been an emotional rollercoaster ride and i proved that i cant handle it.

I CANT FALL

have to go on even though im so sure i will only fail again. that hurts other people so much. i do wish i could do something that can make people proud

instead of disappointed.

i really want to do something good. for once. but im not getting the message. so whatever i do it comes out wrong in the end. im blind

need to
rip everything from inside
and try again
again
i cant do anything
to change things
when the problem
lies
with
me

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if you don't know where you're going
any road will get you there.

2005-02-23, 11:21 p.m..
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