} give a little bit self awareness. well. im certainly very aware of myself now. i cant say im happy with what i saw in myself.. but i guess im learning more and more about myself and its good. the sharing session really opened up my eyes. at first i felt really bad cos i sort of screwed up my own sharing... the whole atmosphere just made my thinking illogical and i couldnt really think properly anymore. but now it doesnt really matter... because whats more important is that now i know about other people's problems. my problems arent really all that bad. if anything .. they're really just a lot of things i have to deal with within myself. when i got affected at that time it was really due to all the things i had heard from the other people.. maybe the gratefulness just overcame any logic i had. i guess what hurt the most was knowing that the people who deserve to receive the most have been just giving and giving. and i've been taking a lot. i dont deserve that. i always knew im somewhat selfish but i was never aware im this selfish. but i guess everyone in the class will be able to open up more now. i mean.. just from the time of the sharing everyone is already being more sensitive to one another. that was really really nice. it will take time for me to resolve the issues within myself... but i think i will try harder to give more from now on. ms jo teo was really good. im glad i see her in this new light now. im glad i can see a lot of people in a new light. Thank you God. ---------------------------------- i failed to share about arc again. its so hard to explain. everytime i try i get stuck and somehow i can only describe the superficial things. its so hard. so hard to talk about the things that matter the most. ---------------------------------- empty apartment - yellowcard call me out answer no take you away waking up take you away it's ok to be angry and never let go take you away it's okay. ---------------------------------- oh man. i want my own guitar. suhui taught me a few notes and now playing it is one of the few things i can think about. oh man. cant wait to learn guitar...if i end up learning it that is. ---------------------------------- learnt a new word: masochistic. hmm. 2005-02-19, 9:29 p.m.. before } after |
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