} ha ha ha

important things to do tomorrow

- find laptop cupboard key. wth man
- grab cd print pass to MET
- close arc room at 6

important things to do eventually

- take FRS grp photo
- understand differentiation by chain rule
- understand chem
- go for checkup & check for brain damage. must have lots of tissues lost

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havent done reflections for english. my mirror is so foggy now

didnt revise for chem at all. so dead

FRS coming nearer. and nearer. and nearer

im dead. im dead im dead im dead

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I'm Still Here - John Rzeznik

I am question to the world
not an answer to be heard
or a moment that's held
in your arms

and what
do you think you'd ever say?
i won't listen anyway..
you don't know me
and i'll never be what you want
me to be

and what
do you think you'd understand?
i'm a boy, no
i'm a man
you can't take me
and throw me away

and how
can you learn what's never shown?
yeah, you stand here on your own
they don't know me
cos i'm not here

i
want a moment to be real
wanna touch things i don't feel
wanna hold on
and feel i belong
and how
can the world want me to change?
they're the ones that stay the same
they don't know me
cos i'm not here

and you
see the things they never see
all you wanted, i could be
now you know me
and i'm not afraid

and i
want to tell you who i am
can you help me be a man?
they can't break me
as long as i know who i am

and i
want a moment to be real
wanna touch things i don't feel
wanna hold on
and feel i belong
and how
can the world want me to change?
they're the ones that stay the same
they don't know me
but i'm still here

they can't tell me who to be
cos i'm not what they see
yeah, the world is still sleeping
while i keep on dreaming for me
and their words are just whispers and lies
that i'll never believe..

i
want a moment to be real
wanna touch things i dont feel
wanna hold on
and feel i belong
and how can they say i'll never change
they're the ones that stay the same
i'm the one now
cos i'm still here

i'm the one
cos i'm still here
i'm still here.

2005-01-24, 9:33 p.m..
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