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between being stupid and not being able to trust anyone, i'd rather be stupid.

its true. as i grow older i think more and more. i think too much. like im trying to find an answer to something. but if i could just live everyday to the fullest, i wouldnt need an answer to make it all worthwhile.

its so sad that, when i was younger, i only wanted to be more mature but i was naive anyway. and now that i've grown up somewhat, i only want to think like a child again. it seems better somehow, even if it means being 'blur' all the time.

its better than finding faults wherever i go. finding it easier to be sad and melancholic rather than happy.

actually i think children are very smart. they know what they want and how to get it. they only seem stupid because they're always trying to grow up. trying to be something they're not.

i feel happiest when i see that i made someone smile. and during that short space in time, it doesnt matter that everyone has so many problems or that the world is falling apart. just for that moment. the happiness erases everything away.

maybe thats how heaven is like.

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went for rc idol yest night. heh. fun event. so lame. adeline RAWKED! she got a muvo mp3... so jealous... hahahah just kidding lah. kelsey was damn high. we were speculating that its because of lucas (guy in that church). cos she went high after seeing him on stage. hmm.

anyway it felt quite weird, seeing people you KNOW but you DONT know, you know. like people you've seen before but you dont know them at all. like.. familiar strangers.

anyways it was superly fun and i donated so much change to vote for adeline. $2 worth of coins. i could have voted more but it was all in 10 and 5 cents coins so i didnt cos i felt sorry for them.

amazing how practically everybody in that church knows how to play the guitar.

sec 1 orientation was quite OK. i think we secured a number of members. im not sure they can amount to 20 people though. can only hope & pray. apparently theres a sec 1 girl who is a c prog genius. i hope she'll join us and not waste her talent elsewhere. *not going to mention any names*

I HOPE I CAN STILL REMEMBER HOW TO USE THE VCR. have to tape kenshin tomorrow morning. :D

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its already the SECOND WEEK OF SCHOOL and i did it again! i filed my stuff! harharhar. i rock. wahoo! im becoming so hardworking and organised that its unnatural. :S

oh well. s'pore won tiger cup. nvm lar. im still very proud of my country. :)) the only thing that really really annoyed me was the commentating. it was just. distasteful. the s'pore team played well. i accept that. but the commentators really really sucked. so annoying. :x

2005-01-16, 12:06 p.m..
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