} insatiable

I hate it when people have too much expectations. especially when the expectation is of me.

i know i haven't been performing 'up to standard'. but i'm sick of overachieving. why can't i just do what i enjoy instead of slaving my life away? i never understand why people care about grades, or class positions, or studies so much. seriously, why does it matter? can someone explain it to me?

and i do try really hard at everything anyway. shouldn't that be enough?

why do people want to be the best, the smartest? what a stupid thing to ask for. i'd rather be happy.

it's never good enough.

whoops. ranting again. anyway. very worried about njrc. i really hope we can make it in time. go ignition! i don't think my mum will pay for the flash course. havent asked. maybe tomorrow.

physics test tomorrow. so dead. plus she's checking the holiday homework, oh no. must remember to look for it... and the nyaa booklet. i hope i didnt lose it.

2004-07-21, 9:15 p.m..
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