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ARC camp was fun. :)) just not enough. :S

I just didnt get as much out of it as I thought i would.... but i guess its kinda my fault cos i didnt put in as much either.

i expected to get to know people a lot more... bond & stuff. i was hoping maybe me & mich could be closer... maybe get to know sec 1s also.. like, so that we'll have a very nice united group. but o well. :S

maybe i was expecting too much also lah... the only really 'shiok' day was the 2nd day.. it was the day when i really felt i accomplished something. i mean.. a 15k trek isnt something many people can / will bother to do.. but i did so it was a huge accomplishment. was dying and stuff.. but i made it! felt so good. dunno how the seniors can still remain energetic..esp marlisar... and wyna who was singing with grace in the middle of the trek.. wth man..

i mean i could barely talk during the trek..had barely any strength. although during one part of the trek me and suhui were crapping... rare event of the day.. hahah. was telling her that i was so hungry, my stomach could drop off. then we started talking abt the stomach digesting itself and being passed out in the intestines and stuff.. made jolene quite grossed out, WAHAHAH. dunno why, but seemed like she was always in front of me during the trek, even when i was with the brudders.. she was annoyed too when we started singing 99 bottles of coke. hah hah hah.

ANYWAY.

i was disappointed with myself lah. i expected to have been more.. i dunno. but the conditions of the camp made me selfish.. irresponsible.. blah blah. everytime i want to give off my best but i hardly ever do it. wth. am so irritated with self.

i was actually feeling quite upset & miserable after the camp..not knowing why... but after talking w savina today she kinda summed it up for me. it was just really really disappointed. like, we didnt get THAT much out of it.

but camp was fun. it was really really fun. got to say that it was the funnest camp i've ever been to... im really glad i went. i really liked the 'trust' activities... they *almost* got rid of my fear of heights. heh heh. almost. but i decided i like being on the ground.

the trek was really good. well..maybe not so good while it lasted, but it felt so good afterwards, knowing i made thru it... the hide and seek was just frustrating. i HAVE to know where the instructors were hiding, dammit!

the last day was quite boring lah.. ok. rephrase. very boring. but o well.

i slept in the arc room yesterday.. was POURING so it was really quite freezing. after i woke up for a while..walked around.. then went to sleep again with my ARC jacket on so it wouldnt be so cold. then woke up again. walked around. joined gloria at the com, woke denise up... and after a while we left.

when i reached home i bathed.. watched tv... collapsed and slept till 8.30 the next day. slept for 13 hours, not including the naps i had in the arc room. was half asleep this whole day.. must have been. but im ok now. i think.

portugal training was quite ok.. complicated and blah. our team was still quite..dysfunctional. but nvm. we will sort it out in time, i think/hope. after the talk mr tan gave yesterday i just sort of re-resolved to try extra hard for this portugal thing.

gloria left quite early cos she had a movie with her family. lucky peeg! free movie tickets. wth. if only my dad works in mediacorp too.

me and novita and denise stayed back with savina and delle.. helping them for a while and just talking about weird stuff... like about people eating weird things like soap and such. then novita and i reminisced the time when we tried to eat grass.. such a touching memory... hah hah.

walked with sav to the bus stop.. bought bread along the way cos i was SO DAMN HUNGRY. savie is nice to talk to. i was NOT shooing you away. bahhh.

anyway. while walking on the overhead bridge i thought of something corny.

'run up our slopes and enjoy the downhills.'

like, face yer challenges and enjoy the good easy times. although 'downhill' suggests bad times. bah. i suck at these things anyway.

and me and novita and savie were talking about names, so i started thinking abt it too.

'savina' kinda fits savie.. although i think of a strict person, like a teacher, when i think of the name savina. like, ms savina lim? it fits. but of cos savie isnt really like that. sav is funkeh. heh heh.

'novita'.... kinda brings in mind someone unusual..exotic..like a foreigner?? which is what she is to many people i guess..but not to me.. cos im kinda indonesian too??

sav said 'debby' sounds like someone cool and funky. wth. im neither, so nvm. hah hah hah.

'gloria' makes me think of a short plump girl... talkative and cheery and stuff. not really like gloria.. cos glor is just a lame lass. :)

clarissa's name fits her damn well. she's so.. clarissa... musical and stuff. artistic. girlish? yeap. kinda.

denise's name also, kinda.. may seem a bit cold and distant . but actually denise is very nice lah . haha.

i dunno about suhui's name. i can only think of suhui when i think of her name.

anne marie.. yep. good girl. good results. good everything. definitely an 'anne marie'.

lets see... 'michelle' fits mich's personality..kinda... like, artistic and funny and stuff. altho when i think of 'michelle' i think of someone a bit more average-sized.. not so tall. :|

vera's name fits her really well.. makes me think of someone loud ..like with a big mouth. not in a negative way.. kinda like sociable and stuff. laughs damn loud, yeap.

melissa... yeah it fits.. esp if you pronounce it as meh-lissa or mArlisAr... cos then it really reminds you of meli. heh heh. not being mean but really.

'wyna' is quite a unique name.. i think.. i never heard of it before lah. and the real wyna is also unique so i guess it fits her. but grace yows name doesnt fit her.. at all... grace? what grace? hahah. jk.

'regina'.. actually it doesnt really fit regina.. but her nickname 'reggie' makes me think of someone who is talkative and bubbly and stuff...so it fits her. yayay. heh.

i dunno what else lah. cant possibly list down all 50+ members of ARC. ok, one last one...

nop nop. fits. cos it reminds me of a soccer robot. and nop nop IS a soccer robot. btw. i named my new fish Nop. hope Nop will bring us luck for portugal.

ok lah i wrote enough. so tired of writing now.

2004-06-10, 8:44 p.m..
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