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i feel like blogging.

this morning i went to some art exhibition thing at suntec. something that my dad dragged me along to. it wasn't that bad. most of the art stuff was boring, but there was one artist that i liked, he's an indonesian artist and i like his works, they're quite cool.

was bored most of the time, i was just nicking off free sweets and postcards. haiz. felt like i was at NJRC, so many booths side by side.

and suntec reminded me of the xmas sale last year. :(

i dunno why the hell im being so sentimental now, i think i'm just a bit upset. maybe not a bit. very. i dunno if i can put it down in words, but i'll try.

i'm just really, really upset to think that, the whole of ARC might crumble just because of one conflict.

just because someone hurt another member's feelings, you know? i dunno how the rest feel, but i feel hurt too. almost betrayed.

and while i know everybody makes mistakes and everyone deserves second chances, i'm still in denial that any ARC member can be so selfish.

because my thinking is that, if you're in arc, you've got to be better than that, right?

I'm just really really upset and disappointed. maybe guilty too, I feel like i haven't done my part to keep ARC going.

hey you, if you're a member of ARC..

what is ARC to you?

just wondering.

am gonna either start on my eng essay or the poster that im supposed to do, then maybe train for tomorrow's 2.4 later.

am very nervous about tomorrow's 2.4 run. :S

looking at this is quite destressing. :|

UPDATE

Feeling considerably more cheerful now, for some reason. Don't know why. Just happier. I think it's because I managed to let go of a lot of things. it's good.

or maybe it's cos i been looking at wormy too much.

lookit wormy strut his stuff!

YET ANOTHER UPDATE

went for a run. gym was full. ran around my block, 16 rounds. legs about to drop off. think i'll fail tomorrow. :|

quite proud of myself for surviving though. at the end of it i was walking like a drunkard, i couldn't even see straight, and i was ready to puke.

BAH. hope i can run tomorrow.

2004-04-09, 4:08 p.m..
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